Spirits: Part 3

I wish I could be my usual witty, happy, carefree self. Alas, I have been a ball of anxiety. You know the things that go bump in the night? Well, the other night hubby was out of town and I maybe got 3 hours of sleep, if you combine all the 15 minute light naps in between hearing noises and seeing things that I shouldn't be seeing.

I began to question my sanity. Seriously. The next morning I called hubby and raved like a lunatic for a while. Thankfully, he doesn't think I'm nuts. Or if he does, he's been smart enough to not say anything. I went online and Googled paranormal investigators in Oklahoma City. I found a group of people that's been doing them for 7 years. They use all the latest equipment and try through scientific means to explain the happenings - electro-magnetic readings, temperature readings, knowing where the plumbing, pipes, electrical wires are to make sure they're not the cause or interfering with odd readings, doing audio recordings, visual recordings and they also have a psychic on their team. If they confirm unexplained findings they do more research into land records, previous owners, etc.

I walked around wringing my hands wondering if maybe I was being irrational, or making a big thing out of nothing - but honestly, I'm not. This isn't a flight of fancy. Or my imagination getting the best of me. My dogs bark at NOTHING - the wall, their eyes will track unseen objects or whatever the hell it is with hackles up, growling and ears flat. I have nightmares and vivid dreams like I. HAVE. NEVER. HAD. BEFORE. I don't even want to tell you about them again, because they're that horrible to think about. I hear noises that ARE NOT heating vents, ductwork, plumbing, pipes, wind, boards creaking, water heater or gas heaters kicking on. I know what those sound like. This is shuffling, walking, thumping, bumping, scratching walls, opening shutters, closing them, opening doors, door knobs clicking. And they've gotten LOUDER. I see shadows as if someone has passed across a doorway and briefly blocked the light from an adjacent room, the dogs will bark and growl at this brief shadow - I'll look around and nothing, nothing is there. No one. Nothing. But I saw it - a glimpse. They saw it. It's something. I don't know what the hell it is. But it's something.

The day after I had the horrible, horrible night and felt absolutely frightened, and later called the paranormal investigators - Alley Cat came home from school and before I told her about my creepy night or contacting investigators, she told me "There was something out there (meaning the main rooms in the house) this morning, Mom. I felt it. It scared me - I mean scared so I RAN out of the house all the way to my car when I left this morning." Talk about a lump in my throat. Seriously. What I felt, she also felt. It's a heaviness - this isn't the friendly spirit of a former owner who died. I don't know what it is. It feels menacing. It's heavy. It's dark. It's HOT - as in the temperature in my bedroom was over 90 degrees - and I had the door open to the sun porch with the fans on where it was 40 degrees out there - no way it could've maintained 90 degrees in my bedroom, but it did. The rest of the house, a cool 68 - 70. My bedroom becomes a furnace at times. With no explanation. The heating vents are stuffed with towels. So much to explain, I won't go into all of the nitty gritty details - but there is something or somethings here. I can't explain it myself. I can't even wrap my mind around it, honestly.

The investigating team will be here tomorrow night (Friday) to set up equipment around 10:30 pm and spend the night collecting data and doing their thing. I hope it will at least somehow confirm what just has me absolutely on edge. Hopefully, it won't just confirm it but also help to explain it. I can get my mind away from it during the day. But the nights are long and restless. Hubby has heard some noises, as I blogged about earlier. But it seems to kind of go away when he's home. I don't know why. Maybe it feeds on fear so it's targeting me and my daughter when we're alone. I don't know. Monkey Girl will be at her Dad's this weekend and she knows nothing of these goings on. I don't want to scare her or the child will be in my bed every single night. And so far, she seems pretty oblivious to anything that doesn't have anything to do with playing outside, Disney channels or Webkinz.com. And I'd really like for it to stay that way.

My husband asked, if they DO find something - then what? I don't know. I have no idea. Right now I just have to take it one step at a time because this is so, I don't know - so. . . odd. Foreign. I don't know what we're dealing with here. And until I do, I don't have the foggiest idea what to do about it. Anyway - I'll keep ya posted.